Many of you know that, I have successful been pregnant twice, but miscarried both. I truly believe that it is one of the main reasons for my severe depression, and why I have fallen so deep into this dark hole...amongst other reasons.

Anyway, today my mom sent me an email and offered a great solution, well, maybe not a solutiong, but a form of release, letting go and moving on. She told me that I should write a letter to the baby, put it in a box, and bury it. I think it is a fantastic idea and will really help me to heal and move on. I think it will help both, Jarom and I, actually, and I’m going to ask him to do the same thing. There is a little angel or perhaps a couple little angels waiting up in heaven to join our family, and one day they will join us. I have fiath that they will. Even if I did lose faith at one point-my faith has returned.

So, that is what "Letting Go and Moving On" is all about.

"Your only obligation in any lifetime is to be true to yourself." Richard Bach

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away." Anonymous

"Much as we may wish to make a new beginning, some part of us resists doing so as though we were making the first step toward disaster." William Bridges.

"A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge." Thomas Carlyle

"Believe, when you are most unhappy, that there is something for you to do in the world. So long as you can sweeten another's pain, life is not in vain." Helen Keller

"Magic is believing in yourself. If you can do that, you can make anything happen." Foka Gomey

"Hope is a waking dream." Aristotle

"Hope is putting faith to work when doubting would be easier." Anonymous

"Were it not for hope the heart would break." Socttish Proverb

...but Jarom is back home. He seemed to have a nice time, even if he did have to sleep on an uncomfortable couch. I think it was good for him to get away for a few day and have a break and visit with his parents, Grandma and her new husband. His Dad even let him have one of his Granddad's hunting rifles. I took the dogs with me to pick him up. We have the travel hammock in the backseat of the car-I bought it a year ago, and we are finally using it. It keeps the dog hair off the seats and clean, and helps protect the dogs from falling off the end of the seat should we have to suddenly stop. They were so happy to see their daddy.
Any who, I didn't make it to church, but I did get quite a bit done for primary. The April newsletter is half done, April birthday cards, next weeks assignments, new assignment tracker, April's Scripture and Theme for the bulletin board, and the inactive list that we are working on trying to help come back. In addition to that, I also got my Activity Days activities, games, worksheets, journal sheets, portfolio project report sheets and progress trackers all organized in my "Activity Days file box". I already have a quilting project in mind for them to work on, making baby quilts that we can donate to charity. I want to find a local charity for them to donate them too, for single moms, low-income families, etc. I'll have to do some research on that.
Finally, I got my DVR'd shows watched and a little reading in. Tomorrow, I have a few things to pick up at the store, a post office run, phone calls, laundry, a little yard work (maybe), some reading (scriptures and Emma), and finish the primary newsletter.

So, Joalea posed a challenged to share our talents as she is a Jack of All Trades and a Master of None. Kristi took the challenge and challenged those that know her to do the same....with that, I thought, oh what the heck, I'll give it a shot.

I'm a baker and a chef (I love to cook and try new recipes), scrapbooker, cross-stitcher/embroiderer, card maker, beader, crafter of all areas, really. A mama to two kitties and two doggies, a teacher, a student, a gardener (I have to really be in the mood), interior designer, animal lover, novelist/writer, bookworm, magazine-r, inspirational seeker, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a cousin, a neice, a friend, an auntie (Guam friends), a leader, a follower, a housekeeper-of sorts, a dancer-Jarom gets really embarrassed when I do it in the car...like you Kristi, a singer-even if I am tone deaf, fire starter, computer geek-a geek period, a foodie, a colorist (I love to color), floorplan designer/drafter, photographer, a traveler, party planner, a dreamer, blogger, MySpacer, Sparker, Facebooker, a fighter (arguer), and a lover.

That is quite a list, I guess. Anyone else out there that may want to try this? I'd enjoy seeing your list of talents too. We can all learn something from each other, as well as teach each other.

It was a fun night with lots of learning. Tonight's lesson was in cross-stitch. There was a lot of excitement and questions. They did very well listening and watching instructions. We had just enough time to review the cross stitch and the running stitch, get our materials, and do a few stitched before heading home.
I gave them their AofF flashcards and notebooks. The notebooks were "cool". I think those were the words out of thier mouths. They were pretty excited about thier Easter treats. It was just something small that had a journal in it, some Starbursts and Tootsie Rolls.
It was a successful night. I had seven girls here. Two were from an investigating family that came with Baylee, and Kiley Gray came this evening. It was exciting for me.
Just before the closing prayer, we talked about the possibility of having a sleepover to learn more about and work on our cross-stitching. I started them out on the plastic canvas with yard and big yarn needles. After that, we will graduate to a regular cross-stitch kit-just a small one-2inx2in, I think. They can choose from either a butterfly or a cute pair of girls jeans that reads "So Chic" underneath. Finally, after that one, I have a special kit that they will only work on here during Activity Days; for Mother's Day. It says, "Mothers are Special" with roses below the wording; also 2inx2in. They were all very excited...about all the projects. It was a successful night!